my life goes on.

                            Praise to Allah. He always gives me something that I need but not something that I want so badly. As my life didn't went well,  I suffered for about almost 8 months because of the interview result. Not all of us experienced that but only 20+ of us. Being in the middle of nowhere , it sucked much cause I dont know where my goal is. is it in pmc or even manipal? Some of my friend are so happy , so that they do not have to struggle as much as me because I must have FIFTEEN POINTS in my hand. It means I have to be perfect. so perfect. 

                             I prayed so badly everyday. Wishing my dreams come true. I really hope that I will get 15 points and get the permanent placement in Penang Medical College. During the A-level big examination, I woke up early in the morning to do tahajud. I do it everyday everytime I had a paper that morning. Sometimes I'm afraid that Allah wouldn't listen to me because I've done a lot of sin. Yes I do. But believing Allah never judged us is stronger than everything that keeps me never stop praying to Him.  

                          Alhamdulillah. On the most important day , the day that pictured everything I've been through for the past two years, Allah gave me 14 points for my A-level results. I've kinda feeling not happy but when I started to realize it should be more than enough I felt so happy and thrilled. Yes I know I should get 15 points after all. It doesn't matter anymore cause finally I got the permanent placement in PMC. I received an offer from Royal College Surgeon of Ireland. All praise to Allah and I couldn't asked for more! 

bad memory

bad memory seems to happen to me.i do pray a lot but i just cant do anything because i know luck is not with me.actually it is not so far from me but it is definitely not by my side.now i would like to pronounce that i failed to pass the driving test today.the saddest thing is i'm not even given a chance to actually try it whole-heartedly. the car is not moving at all when i step the engine to the fullest and the jpj invigilators shout angrily at me saying that i failed the test. it was disappointing moment i ever experience and i kept crying when i reached home after that moment. luckily, i passed the road way test with flying colours. now i have to repeat one of the test again and i dont know how to bare with it.hoping it will getting better is the only way i can calm my self and run away from that bad memory.

pmc interview.

25.10.12 was one of the most important date of my life.which is my interview and also ielts results.i was like really nervous.but since my interview is at 1.45 pm.waiting do make me feel less nervous.it just i felt quite sad because some of my friend already done their interview earlier than me and definitely will left me alone.haha.so at 1.45 pm, here it goes.
-the interviewer is from pmc-ucd
-he is a surgeon.
-he is super friendly after all :)
-he asked about myself, why i want to be a doctor, current disease in malaysia, ucd or rcsi?
-then i asked him back about do he really enjoy being a surgeon (yes of course he really do :)
-it was really fine and i hope i passed the interview

ielts?
-i passed the requirement band for me to go to pmc :)

how hectic my life is.

i dont know why i think this sem three is the toughest sem ever.as i have too keep on with my studies i got a lot more things to do.preparing for ielts n also interviews.i keep having extra classes and also test every week. i do have to admit that i get less sleep expecially in the evening.haihhh.so sad.and i keep having side problems that do involve my feelings such as probs with my friends or family.and i dont doubt that my studies getting worst and wosrt as i dont have feelings to study anymore.but i have to get back to reality and keep moving on.sem 3 is almost ended.like a few weeks to go.i must be tough and strong.hopefully i am better in semester 4 n get a full grip of myself :)

pre-raya shopping.

]it just a pre raya shopping.not an actual raya shopping yet.huehuehue.shall we start? last friday, my friends and i went to jln tar to have the most amazing things to do which is shopping.we went there by ktm just for rm5.60 go and back.we reach the destination at 4 in the evening.its such a tiring because we are fasting but we throw that mindset away because we have to shop a lot! it was fun and many shops available with a very affordable prices. so, i bought 4 clothes, a purse and a belt for about rm62 only. not even reaching a hundreds babe :)

we end our journey at 10.30 p.m. its such a wonderful pre-raya shopping :)

semester three.senior year.

i am a senior now.well that's exciting.so.just one more sem to go before i'm going to fly abroad.it has been a week now.so far.it is okay. and i'm hoping it will be continuous.i already got my results too.i quite proud of it. even though it's not so good but i'm happy with it.after two month staying at home and having leisure time, it a lil akward to be at akasia.the ridiculous thing is i cried during the first day i entered akasia because i miss my family and my catsssssssss.i miss them so much and keep looking my album pictures.semester three is gonna be a tough sem ever because i will have my interview for uni replacement in ireland and having my ielts in the same month.way to scaryyyyyy.then, i will finished my A2 syllabus which is very damn hard and too much for my brain to digest all the information.so, dear myself.be tough okayy.u will get trough thiss easily.insyaAllah.

semester two.the end.

since semester two get tougher and tougher day by day, i used to cry and get depressed easily. i dont know why . i still cant cope well with all the study thingy and peer pressure. but it doesnt matter. it ended already. i must focused on my next move. btw, i shouldnt forget many sweet memories i had during semester two. so many sweet things expecially with my housemates and classmates.

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